At the age of nineteen I became an atheist and an existentialist. It was my second year of college and I began a habit of spending hours in the library stacks pulling down volumes whose titles promised a new frontier of knowledge. That was how I discovered the holocaust. The first volume I read was the Warsaw Ghetto Diary, which thoroughly undermined my faith in the human race. I followed this harrowing narrative with the similar Vilna Ghetto Diary which further disabused me of the notion that the universe is guided by a benevolent diety. In addition to proving mankind is on its own, these personal accounts provided deep insights into the Nazi mentality and the Jewish efforts to remain unobserved. I had read the Diary of Anne Frank in high school, but by the time her sanctuary was breached her reporting was over. The angst in the ghetto diaries was palpable, and let me to seek corroboration. The histories I found with their black and white photographs of the camps was a vision of the death I was at first unequipped to deal with. Auschwitz was a particular horror, the brutal camps, the all-too-efficient crematoria. I would awaken from my nightmares in a sweat, still gasping for breath from the acrid gasses paralyzing my lungs. The existential angst seemed at its most acute in my self-tortured meanderings as I descended the steps into the antechamber where I was stripped and readied for extermination. The fascination of the camps still taunts me, and I remain to this day strongly lured by stories of unexpected or accidental holocaust survivors. Perhaps none have pulled me in more than Warwick Davis and the Seven Dwarfs of Auschwitz which I recently found on YouTube. The seven members of the Ovitz family of minstrel dwarfs would have been eliminated at the entrance of the extermination camp were it not for Josef Mengele’s “medical”fascination with dwarfs, and Hitler’s infatuation with Disney’s animation of Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (from the German fairy-tale Sneewittchen). Warwick Davis bonds with the kindred-spirit performers of the Ovitz family and tours their origins in a remote part of Hungary, He takes us to the cattle cars and the rail platform outside the work camp where the head of the Ovitz brought out a playbill of their performances to take to the SS leaders. Warwick reminds us how the seven performers, just like himself, were world famous acts widely applauded before the war. He takes us on an intensely personal guided tour of the camp with sympathetic docents who show us the sleeping quarters for a thousand inmates impossibly crowded, and the Little Wood, a forest still standing where overflow crowds waited for space to clear out at the chambers. I thought I knew about the Holocaust, but from an empathetic man of small stature I have learned far more.
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This is one of Earth's most unfamiliar life forms. Like an earthworm, it spends its entire life buried in a food-rich substrate slowly engulfing what comes to its mouth, digesting the sparse food that it encounters, then excreting what is left from the other end. It is a member of a marine phylum of life containing 7,000 species found in all the seas on Planet Earth.
In my late 20's I lived in Puerto Rico and spent as much time as I could beach-combing and snorkeling in the shallow Caribbean coral reefs. I would encounter bizarre egg-like skeletons at the upper tide level, washed there with the sticks and other flotsam temporarily just out of the reach of the waves. These fragile treasures were as light and insubstantial as cascarónes, the confetti eggs children in Spanish-influenced cultures love to smash on their friends' heads at cumpleaño parties. Most were broken fragments, and the few that were intact had to be handled with caution. Like sand dollars on Texas beaches, they were long-dead relics of organisms that made a meager living just offshore. As a youth, I used to shuffle my toes in the sand at my feet on Gulf beaches between the surf-breaking sandbars in neck-deep waters. When I encountered little rough disks I would wrap my toes around them and reach down with my hand to extract them from between my toes. Unlike the smooth, sun-bleached forms found on the dry beaches, they were tan in color, and covered with tiny bristles that waved about in alarm. Usually, I would give them a toss and look for more, but sometimes I would bring them into sandy tide pools to inspect their habits. I would lay them flat in the calm waters and in seconds they would bury themselves by pulling sand grains up and laying them on their top surface, like pulling the covers up as they put themselves to bed. I would lie down next to the tide pool and place them in the palm of my hand to see how they did this neat little trick. Projecting between the spines waved tiny white arms that seemed to stick to my fingers. The spines acted in unison with these fleshy arms to move them along quite rapidly. Sensing their distress, I would take them back to the quiet waters between the sandbars and drop them back home. I remembered these sand dollars as I found these marine cascarónes in Puerto Rico and knew that these marine cascarónes were related to the sand dollars since both featured a 5-pointed star symmetry. I began to look for their living representatives and presumed that like sand dollars they could be found in the shallow sand. As I snorkeled in quiet waters I began to dredge my fingers into the sand and was soon rewarded with the grand prize!I brought to the surface a giant 8-inch sea biscuit nearly 2 inches in depth. Like the sand dollar they were covered with short hair-like spines, but also had a few long spines 4 or 5 inches long, which they brandished at me like menacing swords. Like the sand dollars, they too buried themselves when returned to their habitat, though slower due to their great size. Although it violated my "leave-it-alone" philosophy, I took one of these "sea biscuits" as they are commonly called, and dry-landed it to steal its life and skeleton. Once the corruption of the flesh brought on by its death hollowed it out, I rubbed off the spines and soaked it in bleach to render it white in color. It was so very fragile that I knew I could never add this to my collection of sea urchins and sand dollars that I was bringing together for study. I applied several layers of varnish to strengthen the shell, and was pleased with how strong the result was. I was surprised that this had the side effect of bringing out a pattern of skeletal elements that I had previously seen only the suggestion of. I would learn years later in paleontology classes that the individual ossicles composing the skeleton were single crystals of calcium carbonate. When thin sections of rock samples are subjected to certain kinds of light rays (as geologists are prone to do) these single crystals shone like beacons of their special character. |
Author I'm a seventy something old codger retired from an all-to-brief career as a scientist and educator. No longer bound by the constraints of having to make a living, I have turned to the arts to amuse myself. My work consists of "works on paper" including prints and photographs, as well as letterpress and book arts. I write for my own amusement and read whatever books I find interesting from Proust to Melville. Archives
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